This #MusicMonday is Pacific from ‘S’ and Jenn Champion. It’s no secret that I’ve had some serious struggles with depression over the past year, and this song showed up at some point during a low time and it made me cry so hard because it just… connected with me. It’s both sad and like a big hug at the same time. It’s not as light-hearted as some of my recent songs, but I can’t keep these powerful lyrics, and the beautiful music that comes with it, away from you, lovelies. <3
Lyrics
Don’t waste your time giving up You know you’ll start over again Find it and fix it, feel the end
Know there is some who loves you
And I’ll find a home on the floor of the ocean I won’t have to see you with someone else there I’ll leave you a note: all the things that I never said Believe there is someone who loves you Believe there is someone who loves you
I played this card too late and… we want different things and I knew this from the start
I feel sad today, and I can’t trade this place, and I think I’ll fall apart And I think I’ll fall apart And I think I’ll fall apart
And all of the sadness seeps in It cradles you out ’till the end And you can’t get away from it And it goes wherever you go
And you can’t get away from it And it goes wherever you go
And you can’t get away from it And it goes wherever you go
And you can’t get away from it And it goes wherever you go(you go) And you can’t get away from it (you go, ohhh) And it goes wherever you go (ohhh) And you can’t get away from it (ohhh) And it goes wherever you go (ohhh)
I’m excited to get this #MusicMonday out to all of you, lovelies, because one of my awesome readers actually tagged me in a post about this song saying that it reminded her of me! Of course, I already love Halsey to death, but I agree that her new song ‘Nightmare’ has some badass lyrics too. Enjoy it, lovelies!
Lyrics
Now I lay me down to sleep… I pray the Lord, my soul to keep… If I shall die before I wake… I pray the Lord, my soul to take.
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life. I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind. They talk shit, but I love it every time, and I realize…
I’ve tasted blood and it is sweet, I’ve had the rug pulled beneath my feet. I’ve trusted lies and trusted men, broke down and put myself back together again. Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters, collected the pieces and picked out a dagger. I’ve pinched my skin in between my two fingers, and wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors.
“Come on, little lady, give us a smile.” No, I ain’t got nothin’ to smile about. I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for a moment to say I don’t owe you a goddamn thing!
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life. I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind. They talk shit, but I love it every time, and I realize…
I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night. That I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night.
No, I won’t smile, but I’ll show you my teeth, and I’ma let you speak if you just let me breathe. I’ve been polite, but won’t be caught dead lettin’ a man tell me what I should do in my bed. Keep my exes in check in my basement, ’cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you’re complacent! I could play nice, or I could be a bully, I’m tired and angry, but somebody should be!
“Come on, little lady, give us a smile.”
No, I ain’t got nothin’ to smile about.
I got no one to smile for, I waited a while for
a moment to say I don’t owe you a goddamn thing!
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life.
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind.
They talk shit, but I love it every time,
and I realize… I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life.
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind.
They talk shit, but I love it every time,
and I realize…
Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware, but I’d rather be a real nightmare, than die unaware, yeah. Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware, but I’m glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers.
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life.
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind.
They talk shit, but I love it every time,
and I realize…
I, I keep a record of the wreckage of my life.
I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind.
They talk shit, but I love it every time,
and I realize…
I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night. That I’m no sweet dream, but I’m a hell of a night.
I’ve been terrible about keeping up with #MusicMonday because life keeps distracting me, but I want to try and get back to it. Starting today with ‘Moments’ by Tove Lo (who I adore) and I have to say this song resonates with me SO MUCH! I definitely feel like she’s speaking to my soul with this song and I think when you read the lyrics / listen to the song you’ll see why. The video has more than just the song, and it’s powerful af too.
From the video: “Say it with me” … “You’re broken, I never did anything right, you’re fucked up” … “Do you feel better?”
Enjoy, lovelies!
Lyrics
I grew up with a lot of green Nice things ’round me I was safe, I was fine Grew up with a lot of dreams Plans who to be None of them know were mine
I love freaks, I don’t care if you’re a wild one (a wild one) I love freaks, I don’t care if you’re a wild one And me
I, I’m not the prettiest you’ve ever seen But I have my moments, I have my moments Not the flawless one, I’ve never been But I have my moments, I have my moments I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs But on good days I am charming as fuck I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs But on good days I am charming as fuck
I can be the perfect one But I’ll make you come And I’m locked in your mind You can say I don’t belong That I’m so wrong I can tell, tell you lie
I love freaks, I don’t care if you’re a wild one (a wild one) I love freaks, I don’t care if you’re a wild one And –
I, I’m not the prettiest you’ve ever seen But I have my moments, I have my moments Not the flawless one, I’ve never been But I have my moments, I have my moments I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs But on good days I am charming as fuck I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs But on good days I am charming as fuck
Rough around the edges, memories and baggage You know me… Never play the safe card, when I go, I go hard And now you know
I, I’m not the prettiest you’ve ever seen But I have my moments, I have my moments Not the flawless one, I’ve never been But I have my moments, I have my moments I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs But on good days I am charming as fuck I can get a little drunk, I get into all the drugs But on good days I am charming as fuck
I missed #MusicMonday last week, lovelies, because I needed some… well, serotonin. Hahaa… I actually first heard this song the day my grandfather died, and it ended up on repeat for a few days because the words really struck me and the tempo/beat of the song kept me moving while the tone of it still fit my mood. All in all, this is the first time I’ve heard this guy, but I’m definitely going to keep a look out for more! For the record, I’m doing a lot better today, but I still wanted to share ‘Serotonin’ by Call Me Karizma. Enjoy!
Lyrics
Break the fuckin’ mirror ’cause I hate the image. Every single tear I cry is wasted liquid. I fucked too many girls to count, I ain’t committed. I guess being an asshole was a bad decision.
Thanks haters I love you, no one above you. I lost a thousand friends to threads, like where’s the undo? Tweetin’ like I ain’t affected by the hate directed every second Maybe I should take the weapon, blow.
Where are you going? My serotonin… I’m feeling alone and the world is so cold. It’s hard to focus without oxytocin… Love is an ocean I can’t control.
Break up with my girl because she doesn’t trust me I don’t fuckin’ blame her ’cause I trust in nothin’ Mama held a bottle, daddy doesn’t hug me. All I ever wanted was someone to love me.
Thanks doctor I need those Give me a free dose I took a thousand happy pills but I’m still emo Actin’ like I ain’t affected by the hate directed every second Maybe I should fuckin’ end it now.
Where are you going? My serotonin… I’m feeling alone and the world is so cold. It’s hard to focus without oxytocin… Love is an ocean I can’t control.
Chemicals, chemicals in my brain, where’d you go, where’d you go anyways? Left a hole where the bad wants to stay. Everything, everything goes away. Chemicals, chemicals in my brain, where’d you go, where’d you go anyways? Left a hole where the bad wants to stay. Everything, everything goes away.
Well, lovelies, I’m a full-time author and that means I can finally get back to the things I loved doing… like Music Mondays! Today I’m in full-on edits for Inheritance and that means I need awesome working music. Billie Eilish is fucking amazing (if you haven’t listened to her yet) and while I love so many of her songs, this one has been repeated wayyyyy more than once over the last few months. I just love the dark tone to it, the edge in her tone, and the lyrics are amazing too. Check it out and enjoy!
Lyrics
Bite my tongue, bide my time Wearing a warning sign Wait ’til the world is mine Visions I vandalize Cold in my kingdom size Fell for these ocean eyes
You should see me in a crown I’m gonna run this nothing town Watch me make ’em bow One by one by, one One by one by You should see me in a crown Your silence is my favorite sound Watch me make ’em bow One by one by, one One by one by (one)
Count my cards, watch them fall blood on a marble wall I like the way they all… scream Tell me which one is worse living, or dying first? Sleeping inside a hearse (I don’t dream)
You say Come over baby I think you’re pretty I’m okay I’m not your baby If you think I’m pretty
You should see me in a crown I’m gonna run this nothing town Watch me make ’em bow One by one by, one One by one by You should see me in a crown Your silence is my favorite sound Watch me make ’em bow One by one by, one One by one by (one)
Crown I’m gonna run this nothing town Watch me make ’em bow One by one by, one One by one by You should see me in a crown Your silence is my favorite sound Watch me make ’em bow One by one by, one One by one by (one)
It’s #MusicMonday (and release day for Corrupt Desires) so I obviously need something energetic enough to keep me functioning since I was up into the wee hours prepping for today with posts and takeover pre-work and blahblahblah. This song has the most fun electronica elements, but Thief also has great vocals that remind me of Jarryd James (another fave of mine). Anyway, I’ve got so much more to share today, but since I missed this last week I wanted to make sure you got this to kick off your mornings! Enjoy!
Lyrics
I never meant for this to hurt you, I never meant to stay. You knew I couldn’t go there with you, but you asked me anyway. (Say, won’t you stay?)
So take a lesson from the liar… Take a lesson from the thief… Don’t build your house upon a promise that you just don’t plan to keep.
I don’t believe you. You got another thing coming, I don’t believe you. You got another thing coming,
I don’t believe you.
I didn’t wanna say that to you, I didn’t wanna make you cry. But why even ask the question, when you know you’re gonna get a lie? (Don’t lie to me, baby)
Maybe it’s because I’m broken, maybe it’s that I’m a thief, but you probably should’ve spoken if you wanted me to believe.
I don’t believe you.
You got another thing coming,
I don’t believe you.
You got another thing coming,
I don’t believe you. You got another thing coming,
I don’t believe you.
You got another thing coming,
I don’t believe you. (Oooh oh) (Oooh oh) Don’t believe you
Oh, look at my soul, what am I supposed to do? (Don’t believe you) Oh, lost control, the pain that I put you through… (Don’t believe you) Oh, look at my soul, they’ll see into me and you. (Don’t believe you) Oh, lost control, how am I gonna learn the truth? (Don’t believe you)
